Tuesday, October 30, 2012

I Stand in Awe

And I stand, I stand in awe of you. I stand, I stand in awe of you.  
Holy God to whom all praise is due,
I stand in awe of you.

If you have been around church at all in the last 20 years or so, I am sure you know this Hillside song.  This is where I have been today...completely  standing in AWE of my Savior.  You see, something big happened in our house today.  Our adoption of 2 precious 5 year old girls is complete...they are ours forever.  

Jon is currently in Latvia, poor guy left Atlanta Sunday afternoon, got to Latvia Monday afternoon, had court on Tuesday (today) and is flying back home tomorrow.  That is A LOT of travel for one court date.  So, why am I standing in awe today?  Glad you asked...

I kept looking at the girls today and would just marvel at the fact that they are my daughters.  That God would pluck them out of a hopeless situation and place them in OUR family half way around the world.  You see, our family is very big on artistic expression... Jon being a musician, our boys are artistic and me, well... I appreciate the arts! They move me, they draw me closer to God.  I can be crafty when given the opportunity and I like to think I have mad cooking skills (which I believe is an art form).  These girls love to draw, sing and dance. One of them has a passion for dance that I have never seen in someone so young.  Not only a passion, but true talent.  If you know us at all, you know that we believe talent and passion are given from God to be used for the Kingdom.  You also know that we have a great connection and relationship with a dance studio here that believes the same thing.  Coincidence that these girls were put in our family?  I don't think so.  

God has been talking to me today about His plan.  How He can see the whole picture, and I can only see what is in front of my face.  And what is in front of my face is what I am comfortable with.  Although I think I am getting better about stepping out on the ledge and even stepping off of it knowing God will catch me and take me to where I need to be.  But, I am still far from where I would like to be in this area... anyway, I am getting off the subject.  I was looking back today at our adoption process, which started about 2 years ago.  Jon and I said, okay God, we will adopt and this is what we want... one girl who is between the ages of 1-3 and healthy.  You know what the cool thing is?  God said okay, that is a good starting point.  He let us start with that in mind to help get us out on the ledge.  The next year we spent in prayer and waiting....somewhere in that year our youngest son said we needed to adopt 2 girls.  We laughed. 

Last September we were shown a picture of 2 goofy looking girls who were 4 years old (I say goofy not in a mocking way at all, they seriously don't even look like the same girls to me now).  I heard God clearly tell me not to be afraid and to trust Him. So, we did... you know the story, I am not going to repeat it again now.  My point is, these girls have non, nada, zip of the original qualifications that we were willing to step out and do.  And yet, today I stand in awe because they are 100% the perfect girls for our family.  God knew and he let us gradually get there and see His vision... and it rocks.  We have literally seen God move mountains to get these girls into our family.  From paperwork going through that we thought would be a problem (mostly because of our income... you know, you don't go into full time missions to get rich!), to complete financing of this adoption being covered.  This morning when I told the girls they get to stay in our family forever, they were more excited then I think I have ever seen them.  They were jumping around and hugging me and hugging each other and Vika said, "This is a good day!"  And when they went to bed tonight they thanked God for giving them a family, can you imagine?  I can't... I have never been without a family, but they have been without one for 5 1/2 years, and they understand how important a family is.  My heart is singing praises at His goodness and mercy.  God rocks... and I wonder...how much more does He want to do with our lives if we just step out more and let Him do His thing?

So today (drum roll please!) I would proudly like to introduce you to our daughters:

Viktorija Grace Simpson and Milana Hope Simpson
 (aren't they beautiful!)