Did the title catch your attention? Passion is something I thought about a lot tonight. No, not the romantic kind of passion... the kind of passion that God places in us to further His Kingdom. The passion you feel when you know you are doing something that you absolutely LOVE to do and you are doing it to glorify God. There is a quote that I know I have mentioned on my blog before, but it relates so well to tonight that I am going to bring it up again:
"The place where God calls you is where your deep gladness and the world's deep hunger meet." Friederich Buechner
Tonight I took the boys to see an extreme unicyclist. His name is Dustin Kelm, and he and his wife travel all over the world doing unicycle shows. Look him up on You Tube under Unishow. They draw a crowd, Dustin does what he loves (rides his unicycle, sometimes while juggling fire!) and then talks to the crowd about Jesus. He uses images about his talent to draw you into the Bible. He talked about how choosing the narrow path is not always the easiest and then he rides along these rails and goes up and down stairs (Matthew 7:13 "Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it."). He had other things as well, that I can't even remember right now. Partially I can't remember because I got so overwhelmed by the thought of doing what you are passionate about that it distracted me a bit! Let me try to explain...
Ever since we joined OM and have gotten that taste of doing what you are passionate about for the Lord, there is no turning back. How many people get to do what some consider a hobby as a full time job? How many people think, "oh, I could never do that". I probably thought that at one time. And yet, here we are doing it. And God is providing and being glorified in it. With Jon it is obviously his music, and being able to be creative. For me, I have actually struggled to figure out what I am passionate about. Although it should be so obvious to me... I am a mother. I am passionate about my kids. They are and will always be my mission field. I am passionate about being a mother who my kids want to be around, and not because I am a "friend" (that is another subject, I don't consider myself their friend at all!), but because they know they are safe with me. Tonight I got a glimpse of Ty as a preteen that I haven't seen before. Girls were coming up to him and hugging him and he had a few friends with him. I told him he could go sit anywhere, but he chose to sit next to me (with his friends), and he talked to me during the show. Kinda blew my mind, but made me proud of him! We have tried to instill this same concept in our boys. To try and get that into their heads now so they don't waste part of their life going after the "American Dream" only to find it empty and lacking. I am not saying that Jon and I wasted our lives before this... but, this is not an idea that either of us grew up with. I feel like I might be rambling a bit, but stick with me here. So, what does this look like for our boys? We try to tell them all the time to find out what passion God has placed in their hearts that they can turn around and give back to Him to further His Kingdom.
Now, I know what I am about to say is not going to sit well with everyone. But, it is what I believe and I will say it anyway. Do I think college is going to be the most important stepping stone in my kids lives? No. If they chose something that they need college for, then fine, but it is not something that I am fully pushing and making super important to them. I know, completely Unamerican of me... I would love to see each of them take a year off after high school and go onto the mission field somewhere. I think God has already told me that one of my kids will not be living in the same country as me, and I am fine with that. I have come to the conclusion, that in the end, they are not just mine... they belong to God first and foremost. And when Jon and I dedicated them to the Lord as babies, that is what we were saying. Thank you Lord for the privileged of raising these boys, but we fully know that they belong to You. Just to clarify, I am not saying college is a waste of time, it just might not be as important as our society makes it out to be. God can give you a passion and use you without a 4 year degree, it just depends on your definition of success and happiness. Also, if our boys decide to go to college that is fine! Just putting that out there! :)
I am not sure if this came out exactly how I had it in my head, but sometimes it feels good to just get thoughts out! Hopefully it gave you a little glimpse into my mind tonight. There is another bible verse that we have on all our newsletters, and something we try to strive for as a family. It is Colossians 3:23-24.
"Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving."
Also a quick adoption update... we are still in the process of waiting. Kazakhstan said the earliest they would open up would be March, and our adoption agency said add a month to that. So, yes we are still praying for it to reopen any day! If you would like to join us in prayer that would be great. We also pray daily for our daughter to feel loved and wanted. It is so sweet to hear the boys pray for her! God is good, and for now we are standing firm.